The Two Christmases – Response.
Our friend David has kindly agreed to let me include his response to Abbot Raymond’s Christmas Day Mass Homily.
The picture, a family heirloom of the Abbot, most aptly illustrates the theme, “the Angel left her”.
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Letter from David:
Dear Fr. Raymond,
I found your homily on Christmas day, which you have copied here in part, most moving. I have long meditated on the annunciation. If I say the odd decade of the rosary, this is the one I tend to favour. The conception of Jesus is the most powerful of all mysteries. How can we comprehend it? Yet we are an intimate part of this mystery…. The most intimate part. Mary, our mother, was, in one sense, “but” an instrument of God’s love for us all. We look to her as our mother, and yet she is “only” our mother because God the Father loves us all as his children. He created the whole world and mankind, not “just” Mary. He made us in his own image and likeness! We tend to think of her as special and the rest of humanity as “nothing”. This is wrong. Mary is special, but so are all of us. She is special precisely because and only because we are all special.
We all yearn for love, perhaps (probably) selfishly. Yet here we have the proof that God loves each one of us in the same way, yet infinitely, that we all yearn to love, and be loved. In her “fiat”, Mary showed her love not only of God but of all mankind, selflessly. She knew what her assent to the Divine will meant. She was steeped in the scriptures. We tend not to understand just how much this understanding of scriptures shaped her whole realisation of who she was. It was the basis of her totally sublime love of God. We must not forget that Adam was immaculately conceived in the same way as Mary was. Mary still had free will, as Adam did. But Mary chose not to eat the forbidden fruit. Instead, she handed herself over totally to the will of god. At every moment in Mary’s life she chose the best path. This was not just a “spur of the moment” thing at the time of annunciation, as our lives tend to be. There was not a single moment where she faltered. How wonderful is this?
It was because she understood and loved so completely and so steadfastly that she could become the mother of Jesus and be the guiding hand in her son’s upbringing. Where we try imperfectly to assent to that love in faith, after her loving assent to the will of God, she “knew” because she had conceived of the Holy Spirit and not of man. But this conviction only followed the conception, the “proof”. And she rushed off to
Mary’s total conviction must have been an influence in the childhood upbringing of Jesus. He knew who he was because Mary knew who he was. How could she not, from the earliest age, have told him of this mystery and talked to him about what it meant and what it would mean to him and to her. Joseph was also convinced of who this child was, or he would have divorced Mary. We know this from the Gospels. This conviction of Mary’s is more than faith. It is an incredible mystery. How could Jesus, the man, remain steadfast in this conviction? Think of his temptations. The devil, who is far from stupid, thought he could shake his belief in himself or he would not have bothered tempting him. His mother is the root of his faith in himself. We might tend to think that such an idea is heresy, since he is Divine. But he could not rely on his divinity. He is equally human and thinks and works as we do. His mother and Joseph are the ones that cement his conviction of who he is. His own life of prayer and self-denial confirms this conviction and brings his divinity to bear on that conviction. As a man he has to believe in himself until the moment of his death. It is both at the last supper, where he asserts his faith, and definitively in his resurrection that he confirms this faith in himself.
For me, the most telling moment is when he cries out on the cross “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”. At that point he is truly human. He is dying as a man for all men. This is what he believed. Thus he came into the world. And thus, as a babe, in the arms of his mother, he learned who he was. Blasphemy again, but there is a very real sense in which Jesus is no more divine than we are. He is left hanging on the cross shouting at his Father for having abandoned him, only his faith left. He did not have Mary’s conviction at that point, only his own powerful faith, nurtured by Mary, in his father and in his own mission. There is great comfort in this thought. We must believe in our own mission and in our own resurrection, as Jesus did.
You said in your homily that “the angel left her” before the moment of her conception. What a moment that was. Mary alone in the Divine presence. The point you were making, I felt, that genuinely brought tears to my eyes, was that we can all share this moment. At any time in our lives we can share it, whenever and wherever we want. We only have to say with Mary the prayer “fiat”. That “fiat” brings Jesus into our soul and heart just as it brought Jesus into the womb of Mary. Thus, we can share in her conviction that her son is the son of God, and the belief that our lives and our death can bring Jesus into the world and our own poor souls to heaven. This experience, this “fiat” can lead to more than faith, it can lead to sharing in the conviction of Mary, just as Jesus did.
God bless, and thank you.
David.
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Christmas blessings to all our associates
from
Fr Raymond and the Community
